An Attribute Of Philanthropy: 

        The past is the past and it can not even potentially change, one can only take who and what they are, to in retrospect/turn attempt to make it the future the best that it can be.  Take your time to interpret various aspect's and atttributes andvirtues' of all of the information which establishes' you.  Alot of what is conscious or aware-of to you can be implemented trough consi- stant interpretation of your reality.  Trust it that you can change, you simply have to have the will, courage and faith to make the transition.