I wonder if I do not believe in a deity for the very reasons others are theists. I cannot comprehend the concept of forever in the same way I cannot grasp the size of the universe. As a child I would stare into a mirror and think of living forever in an afterlife of some sort, and when the thought became too overwhelming, I would subsequently faint. Perhaps the fear of existing forever- with no end of any kind- is enough for me to hope for the absence of a higher power. Theists tend to glorify the thought of existing in an afterlife as a positive attainment. Fear drives us all to interpret our meaning of life differently. However, this is not the only reason for my beliefs.