I don't think you really grasp what it is to be Athiest.  It's not a religion.  It's not a substitute for believing in God.  It's not that we "don't want to believe in God."

Imagine all the people around you believed in Santa Claus.  Just you and a few others didn't believe.  You didn't CHOOSE to not believe in Santa, you just don't.

Athiesm is not an alternative that we select.  It's not like choosing Coke over Pepsi or something, we just do not believe in God.