life is the result of a arbitrary mix of chemicals dispersed throughout spacetime that eventually fell victim to gravitation and began its evolution to modern day specimins capable of acting on their own.however, life is living. we all have something inside us that inanimate objects don't possess; the soul. so with the development of the brain, the soul is enriched.to think about god is to connect your soul to the bigger picture, the things not known in our dimension. my friend had just come down from a peyote-induced hallucinegenic day of introspection and told me "its gonna be beautiful when man can expell the bounds of his physical form and be everywhere at once. feel everything at once." and then you are god.so why not kill myself now? what if i'm wrong? might as well enjoy my stay while i stay.